don't take lightly on some things...

i was lonely at that time..
and i wasn't thinking of having a relationship..
my life wasn't that good...i was having a bad time...
and there was a guy i meet...he was a friend i knew in college..
he was a mentor...
then after a while..he say he loves me..he say that he has fall for me..
and i ask him to give me time..

he waited..and owest there to cheer me.
then..i accept his hand..

after more than a year.... we was still together..
din expect it will go on smoothly..
i was really happy to be with him...
he was a kind guy...understanding...he not only love..but teaches me to love...
he'll lecture me when i made mistake..he will tell when i upset him...
we never fight long... after a fight we will get back together and apologizes...
and i love him with all my heart...and he even promise me to make me his wife...

but promise is a strong word...and i believed in him...

but...he suddenly disappears... he was silent...
i search for him... worrying about him..he din contact me at all...
i cried alot..i can't sleep..feel like i can't breath...i was like a zombie...i am here but my soul is somewhere else...i was lost...in the silence he made...

now he's gone...i will never can reach him now...he's gone from my life..as he left me..coz thing wont work out...
and he still call me honey...and its killing me inside coz i still want him but...i don't wan to be with him anymore..coz i'm afraid..

*don't promise thing when don't meant it.you're killing someone..